My Rambling Autobiography: Part II

 Posted by on Monday, August 06, 2012 at 03:30 pm  Me, Scribbles, Thoughts
Aug 062012
 
Judging You

Well, I’ve done this before, but I’ve been meaning to come back and have another go at it.  Like before, if it’s in block quotes (like this first section) then it’s not part of the ramble and was added after the fact.  Enjoy!

I only enjoy the company of a few select people.  I can tolerate others and even enjoy time with other people, but willingly seeking out someone’s company is a rare occurrence for me.  I work in a very social environment and should be able to handle people better, but I’m a decent actress, I guess.  I think I’m mean, but most people disagree with me.  Probably because they can’t see what’s going on in my head.  If you tell me something, I judge you.  I judge everything.  I may not judge you the way you would expect me to judge you, but I do judge you.  Oh, you did something stupid?  Well, it could have been worse and I bet you learned something, good job.  Not sarcastic.  Oh, you did something “safe,”  you’re an idiot for more reasons than I can count.  No, not everything “safe” get’s judged as idiotic, but you don’t learn much from safe, do you?

Judging You

Judging You

On the other hand, I do a lot of things just because they’re safe.  For example, I don’t taunt serial killers.  Well, not often.  But I don’t do something only because it’s safe.  I like stability, structure, regularity, and quiet.  My husband is obscene, loud, obnoxious, a bad influence, and too many wonderful things to list!  I love him for everything he is – including his bad qualities.  I’m compulsive, obsessive, impulsive, and dysfunctional, but I tend to keep it mostly to myself.  I don’t hide who I am behind anything, I just keep my own problems to myself.

I don’t like to share anything, but I usually offer because of social necessity.  If I do something, I usually have a reason, no matter how miniscule.  I believe that there’s a reason for everything, but not in a religious sense.  There is no god, but everything that happens is because someone caused it.  It may be intentional, it may not be, but it’s caused by someone and there is an outcome that will have to be dealt with.

My cats recognize the word treat, and if you ask them if they want one, they go sit in the kitchen near their treat bucket and wait for me.  Leeroy will try to steal them out of the bucket and my hand.  Lissie will wait near the hall until you toss them to her.  Casper will wait until you toss them out for the other cats and then rub against you for his small pile of treats.  My cats are a large part of my life and their moods, actions, and attitudes will shape my day.  We recently got a few reptiles – a Tokay gecko called Ted and a Ball Python called Cruella.  The cats are fascinated with them, therefor I’m fascinated as well.  When Jaime has a full cage of crickets for Ted, I am lulled to sleep by their music.

I keep getting interrupted (Jaime and cats) so I’m going to call it quits for now and do part three another day.

My Social Relationships – A Short Story

 Posted by on Monday, May 21, 2012 at 09:38 pm  Me, Scribbles
May 212012
 
Social Wars

A lot of people seem to think I’m hanging out with Facebook a lot because he makes it look like we talk a lot (statuses, pictures, links, etc…) – and at least once a day if not more often.  (Click that Facebook icon in the right sidebar if you’re curious.)  In reality, though, he and I don’t chill that often.  I may talk to him once every other day or so – usually through his app.  Why?  Well, here’s our story…

Once, ages ago, Facebook and I had a thing going on.  Nothing too serious, but we were fairly exclusive.  We weren’t in love, though.  At least I wasn’t!  I mean come on!  He was just too jealous.  He was even jealous of my best friend Twitter (She’s that cute chick over there keeping Facebook from attacking my main man!) to the point of trying to be just like her “but better” he said.

You see, I love GooglePlus.  G+ was that new kid in school, and when he walked in the door I just fell in love.  (See that handsome icon shown first in the sidebar.  Yeah, that’s my man!)  I dropped Facebook like a hot potato and even kicked my best friend off to the side so that I could spend all my time with G+!  But, kids being the way they are, not everyone liked G+ – he’s just too sexy, you know?  Not everyone was willing to give him a try or even the time of day!

Oh, sure, they love his family’s business and all the cool stuff they can get from Google, but this new studmuffin not so much.  So in order to still keep some of my friends, I had to keep hanging out with my ex – Facebook.  You know how that goes.  It’s kind of a love-hate relationship.  Sometimes I think we’re at that point where we can be friends, and then he just goes crazy and sends me an ton of crazy emails that he knows I don’t want!  Or passes on a message from my stalker.  Or something just downright psychotic!

I don’t know what to do with him.  I want to keep him as a friend – there’s just so much history – but at the same time, he’s really cramping my new relationship with G+.  Like, I have to send almost all of my messages to Facebook through G+ because I’m worried that Facebook is going to get too attached again, or get the wrong message or something.  Sure, I email him pictures of the cats and other random stuff, but that’s just common courtesy.  Even my bestie Twitter (who totally forgave me for ditching her when G+ first showed up) gets those pictures!  Seriously.  I send it to them both (and G+’s friend Picasa) at the same time so that he doesn’t think he’s still got a chance or anything!

Social Wars

Facebook is always trying to beat up on G+ for some reason. And Twitter stands on the sidelines cheering for Facebook. (I think she kind of crushes on him - and she can have him!)

Honestly, I probably wouldn’t talk to him anymore if it weren’t for our mutual friends, you know?  I mean, we have a LOT of friends in common.  And almost all of them like him better than G+.  I know G+ is kind of intimidating and all – he comes from a good family, he’s well spoken, has sophisticated interests and all, but he’s still just a regular guy when you get beneath the surface.  I don’t get why more of my friends can’t see that.  :-(

Because they don’t like G+ for some weird reason, though, I try to deal with Facebook.  They’ll all be talking about something cool and I’ll join in, but then he starts acting like we’re dating again or something and tells me everything that everyone has said in the past two days all at once and it just gets weird again.

And then the people who just kind of know us but don’t really know what’s going on get all mean and stuff.  It’s like “why are you messing around with Facebook’s feelings” and “you need to choose, you can’t go back and forth.”  Like really?  You don’t even know me and you’re going to tell me what to do?  Come on!  I’m not going to drop all my friends just because they don’t like my new boyfriend, but I’m not going to pretend that G+ isn’t my one and only!

Sometimes you just have to suck it up and deal with your ex so that you can see your friends – no matter how painful it is.  Although, it would be nice if my friends could learn to accept G+ to make things a little easier on my heart.  And, you know, so Facebook can’t play on everyone’s sympathy by lying and saying that I’m leading him on or toying with emotions or anything like that.  Because I am so not doing that!  Like, I swear!

Happy and Doomed

 Posted by on Tuesday, April 17, 2012 at 07:46 pm  Family, Me, Thoughts
Apr 172012
 
When the Shit Hits the Fan

You know that feeling you get when things are going well? That “when is the other shoe going to drop” feeling?  Yeah?  I’ve got that going on a bit…

Things are going well in almost all areas of my life, but my luck has been that when things start going well, the shit hits the fan.  Metaphorically, so far, thank goodness!  I’m not a pessimist, you know.  But I usually get a little worried when things go too well.

When the Shit Hits the Fan

When the Shit Hits the Fan

Lately, though, that feeling isn’t as strong as it used to be.  I think it’s Jaime’s fault.  He makes everything so much better.  Even fighting is better because I know that we’ll solve or compromise on whatever the fight is about.

It is a very good feeling to know that everything is good and that it’s likely to stay that way.  I’ve never been happier in my life.

Damn you, Jaime, you’re ruining my opportunities to complain and whine!  And I love you for it!  ^_^

We survived 2011!!

 Posted by on Sunday, January 01, 2012 at 09:30 pm  Me, Music
Jan 012012
 
Chasing Cars Calligraphy Lyrics

Today was not just the first day of 2012, but also mine and Jaime’s first anniversary!

It was an interesting day.  We slept late, we watched a couple movies, and I lost his card.  Yep.  I lost the card I bought for our first anniversary.

Chasing Cars Calligraphy Lyrics

Chasing Cars Calligraphy Lyrics

In my defense, though, I bought the card before we ever got married because it was just too perfect to pass up!  I can’t believe I lost it…  I had it a month or so ago.  :-(  Well, I’ll find it sooner or later.

So, I’m off for the next two days, and I’m hoping to get in plenty of reading time and work on some posts for my site.  I know I’ve been extremely neglectful of both my sites and the challenges, but I’m going to do what I can.

Anyways, time to harass my hubby!  ^_^

Super Short Status

 Posted by on Tuesday, December 13, 2011 at 09:09 pm  Me
Dec 132011
 
To Do List

Sooo…  I’m sorry.  Again.

I’ve been busy with all kinds of real life stuff (and a little reading) that I’ve barely had time to sleep.

At some point over the next couple days I’m going to try to get a few book reviews written, posted, and scheduled.  I’m off tomorrow and Thursday, but I have tons of things on my to-do list.

Also, I’m going to try to compile a list of books I’ve read but not yet reviewed because I doubt they’ll all be reviewed before the end of the year. Obviously I wasn’t able to finish all my reading challenges.  Unfortunately, some of them just really didn’t appeal to me and I was trying to motivate myself to read certain books with them.  I’m a little disappointed in myself, but I knew it was crazy taking on so many challenges when life is hectic and crazy on a regular basis.

To Do List

To Do List

On my to-do list is “whittle down challenges” which I will try to do by Thursday so that I can get those removed from my “need to write wrap-up post” list.

Anyways, I’m going to get started on my to-do list.

  • Set up new desktop?  Check!
  • Install programs?  Checking…
  • Transfer data?  Checking…
  • Love the new computer?  CHECK!!!

Oh yeah, I got a new computer.  ^_^  Happy Lishy is Happy Lishy!